Saturday, December 21, 2024

Gratitude: December 21, 2024

Rapture

I can feel she has got out of bed.
That means it is seven a.m.
I have been lying with eyes shut,   
thinking, or possibly dreaming,
of how she might look if, at breakfast,   
I spoke about the hidden place in her   
which, to me, is like a soprano’s tremolo,
and right then, over toast and bramble jelly,
if such things are possible, she came.
I imagine she would show it while trying to conceal it.
I imagine her hair would fall about her face
and she would become apparently downcast,
as she does at a concert when she is moved.
The hypnopompic play passes, and I open my eyes
and there she is, next to the bed,   
bending to a low drawer, picking over   
various small smooth black, white,
and pink items of underwear. She bends   
so low her back runs parallel to the earth,
but there is no sway in it, there is little burden, the day has hardly begun.
The two mounds of muscles for walking, leaping, lovemaking,
lift toward the east—what can I say?
Simile is useless; there is nothing like them on earth.
Her breasts fall full; the nipples
are deep pink in the glare shining up through the iron bars
of the gate under the earth where those who could not love
press, wanting to be born again.   
I reach out and take her wrist
and she falls back into bed and at once starts unbuttoning my pajamas.   
Later, when I open my eyes, there she is again,   
rummaging in the same low drawer.   
The clock shows eight. Hmmm.   
With huge, silent effort of great,
mounded muscles the earth has been turning.
She takes a piece of silken cloth
from the drawer and stands up. Under the falls   
of hair her face has become quiet and downcast,   
as if she will be, all day among strangers,   
looking down inside herself at our rapture.

Galway Kinnell





 

Tuesday, December 17, 2024

Gratitude: December 17, 2024

In the Winter of My Thirty-Eighth Year

It sounds unconvincing to say When I was young

Though I have long wondered what it would be like

To be me now

No older at all it seems from here

As far from myself as ever


Walking in fog and rain and seeing nothing

I imagine all the clocks have died in the night

Now no one is looking I could choose my age

It would be younger I suppose so I am older

It is there at hand I could take it

Except for the things I think I would do differently

They keep coming between they are what I am

They have taught me little I did not know when I was young


There is nothing wrong with my age now probably

It is how I have come to it

Like a thing I kept putting off as I did my youth


There is nothing the matter with speech

Just because it lent itself

To my uses


Of course there is nothing the matter with the stars

It is my emptiness among them

While they drift farther away in the invisible morning 


W.S. Merwin 

Saturday, December 14, 2024

Tuesday, December 10, 2024

Gratitude: December 10, 2024

Resignation

I love you
            because the Earth turns round the sun
            because the North wind blows north
                 sometimes
            because the Pope is Catholic
                 and most Rabbis Jewish
            because the winters flow into springs
                 and the air clears after a storm
            because only my love for you
                 despite the charms of gravity
                 keeps me from falling off this Earth
                 into another dimension
I love you
            because it is the natural order of things

I love you
            like the habit I picked up in college
                 of sleeping through lectures
                 or saying I’m sorry
                 when I get stopped for speeding
            because I drink a glass of water
                 in the morning
                 and chain-smoke cigarettes
                 all through the day
            because I take my coffee Black
                 and my milk with chocolate
            because you keep my feet warm
                 though my life a mess
I love you
            because I don’t want it
                 any other way

I am helpless
            in my love for you
It makes me so happy
            to hear you call my name
I am amazed you can resist
            locking me in an echo chamber
            where your voice reverberates
            through the four walls
            sending me into spasmatic ecstasy
I love you
            because it’s been so good
            for so long
            that if I didn’t love you
            I’d have to be born again
            and that is not a theological statement
I am pitiful in my love for you

The Dells tell me Love
            is so simple
            the thought though of you
            sends indescribably delicious multitudinous
            thrills throughout and through-in my body
I love you
            because no two snowflakes are alike
            and it is possible
            if you stand tippy-toe
            to walk between the raindrops
I love you
            because I am afraid of the dark
                 and can’t sleep in the light
            because I rub my eyes
                 when I wake up in the morning
                 and find you there
            because you with all your magic powers were
                 determined that
I should love you
            because there was nothing for you but that
I would love you

I love you
            because you made me
                 want to love you
            more than I love my privacy
                 my freedom          my commitments
                      and responsibilities
I love you ’cause I changed my life
            to love you
            because you saw me one Friday
                 afternoon and decided that I would
love you
I love you I love you I love you 

Nikki Giovanni

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Sunday, December 8, 2024

Saturday, December 7, 2024