You Probably Did

I remember the first time you told me that you stopped drinking. 
My heart took flight and the idea of having a sober father became the root of my happiness. 
You got drunk that night. 

I remember the first time you let me down. 
I stood alone among my peers because you had better things to do. 
You got drunk that night. 

I remember the first time I slit my porcelain skin open for you. 
As blood trickled from my veins I begged you to come and rescue me from the demons in my mind. 
You got drunk that night. 

I remember the first time I tried to put an end to all the madness that engulfed my life. 
I grabbed your gun from the safe and shot a bullet through my head. 
I will never know if you got drunk that night. 
You probably did.