“We have so much healing to do of the damage to me from thirty five years of abandonment of self, degradation of body, disregard for my own well being, there is so much healing to do, that’s a long time, I was deep in the paint in this thing for a long time, so there are a lot of amends I am making to myself about things I’m sorry that I made myself do in order to get love, approval, validation, and acceptance, and so the amends process for me is like, we’re not gonna do that now, I’m not gonna make you go do that, I will take care of you…”
